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so i haven't posted anything for like a freaking month. lol. everything has been sooo insane. well i went to california to see calvin and i had an awesome time and i was soo gratful that i was able to go. he is over in japan right now and i miss him like nuts. i'm always worried about him and he isn't even like near any danger. i just wish that he could call me everyday but he can't. he gets to call me once every couple days but he has only been there for like three days so idk how many times in a week he is actually going to be able to call me. but i guess the really cool thing is that he can have a laptop and he can skype me so i can see him like face to face!! that part i love lol. i work so much that i feel like i have no time for anything else. i just had my spring break and it was way nice to have so much time off of school cuz i really needed it. i'm just so sick of school and i just want to have summer be here already. i'm moving home and i'm pretty excited to move home but kinda like aw crap rules again. lol. but i really like spending time with the family so it's ok. so i decided that i'm going to the gym all summer long and i'm going to eat healthier and diet and lose lots of weight and then when i go see calvin in japan in september.. i'll look amazing!!!! haha. man i miss him so much. the first few days after i leave him are always the hardest. i just cry and cry my eyes out and i can't seem to stop and everything sad i see i start crying again. but i'm ok now. and i just keep telling myself that this is only temporary. i mean ya 3 years is a very long time... but compared to a lifetime it's nothing. my relationship with calvin has gotten even stronger since he left. i hope one day soon that we will get married. but anyways... i'm dead tired cuz i worked a 10 hour shift today so i'm headed for the sack. i love you calvin. peace out.