wow.....

so my brother talks to me on facebook and asks me to meet up with him because he has something important to tell mom and dad tomorrow that they won't like and he wants to practice on me. so i'm thinking the worst like oh great he got a girl pregnant or he is dating heather again or something weird. i didn't expect this... he is gay. wow. i was like WHAT?? haha i mean it's cool he is my brother and he can do whatever he wants and i accept it but it does kinda suck to know i'm not going to have any more blood nieces or newphews. well i guess i can just spoil the ones i have now and the one that is on the way. i guess one blood newphew you better than none. and i love my other two that i have to death! oh well. it's all good i guess. it was just a shock cuz i was expecting something like the COMPLETE opposite.. hahaha i just don't think my parents are going to take it well... whatsoever. my mom will probably cry and my dad will probably be like um what the hell? i just wish i could call calvin and tell him all my feelings about everything (not just this) and i hate that i cant. ughhhhhh three more days.. and it's going by way too freaking slow i hate it. seriously. i just wish i could see him every day. at least he gets his phone back tho. i'm going to text him like none stop. haha i'm just soooo excited to fly out to see him! i feel like it's taking way way too long. it's going to be a extremely long next three days and then after that it's going to go by way way fast.. until i get home again and then it's slow again! UGH whiplash! geez!!! it needs to be the opposite. i miss him so much it hurts. i haven't even hugged him in two months. i hate this. well nothing i can really do about it i guess. well i got promoted at work so i guess that is a good thing. i got promoted to shift manager. it's a lot more money and better hours. well i hope it's a good thing. i believe that it is tho. i guess i will find out soon :) well i had better try to get some sleep tonight... i love you calvin. peace out.