happy :)

so i just can't believe that it's only like four days away until i fly out to chicago to see calvin :) i am seriously soo freaking excited and i can't wait! i am soo proud of him. he passed everything! i knew he would but i'm just so glad he did. i knew he had it in him. he is such a wonderful person and i miss him soo much it hurts. i cannot wait to kiss him either! lol! i haven't kissed him in two freaking months... omg shoot me now. lol! it's so awesome that i'm flying out to see him but it freaking sucks that i have to say goodbye again for a month. but that is really not too bad when he has his cell phone. my text messages are going to skyrocket the next month. haha i don't really text all that much right now because the main people i text are calvin and brooke and i can't text calvin so i just text brooke and some other people sometimes. lol i'm like pretty much packed and ready to head out haha i'm leaving class early on thursday to make sure i catch my flight. i'm like going to be dying all during government... idk if i'll even go because idk if i'll even need to. maybe i'll just pack my stuff that morning.. go to class for my math quiz and then leave to get on my plane. :) haha i seriously never need to go to that class. ever... haha and i dont'. i'm a bad student... :P just in that class.. well actually in a lot of my classes. i have gotten sooo lazy lately it's not even funny. calvin was like my main motivation for school to make it so we can have a better life together but now that i can never talk to him.. i get discouraged and just feel like giving up sometimes. but i know i need to keep going and no one is lucky to get the opportunity that your parents pay for everything.. i mean everything including college. i'm getting it all for free for me. free school and degree so i shouldn't be so lazy i know. it's just hard when you live alone and you try to get up in the mornings and you know that you have the choice to sleep in or go to class.... well when there is no one to tell you that you have to.. it's really easy to slip and just let the sleep take over. haha i do that a lot. bad ellie bad. haha. well i have an interview at aeropostale tomorrow before my other work and i REALLY hope that i get the job. i mean i don't like my other job at all. it's not the people in any way it's just the working in fast food that i hate. i have done it for wayyyyy too long and i'm just so done. they said that they are hiring seasonal help and if they really like me they will keep in on obviously. but i mean what if they have too many employees that they like.. they will have to let some of them go anyways. so i think i'll just keep my job at pizza hut for like one day a week and hopefully get the job at aeropostale and then if i get let go from them.. then i can just ask for my hours back at pizza hut so i'll never be without a job. :) i decided that was a good plan. now lets just hope that i don't ruin my awesome plan tomorrow at my interview. haha. i really really want this job. and i'm really hoping that they see how good of an employee i would be! but if it doesn't work out i guess it's not meant to be.. but i just really hope i do.... like really. LOL. well i guess i had better get some sleep tonight even tho i'm not tired... we will see how that works. lol. well goodnight. i love you calvin. peace out.