life

well tonight i went over to calvin's familys' house and it was way fun. we just had dinner and hung out and talked. it was really relaxing and i needed it. its just hard sometimes because every time i go over there i see his car and his room and i miss him soooo much. i like cry every time i leave their house. not because i didn't have an awesome time, but just because i miss calvin so much. its only seventeen more days until i get to see calvin and that is so close from now! but the days that i am back there are going to fly by sooo fast... and then i get to say goodbye for another two months... again... fanfuckingtastic. i mean at least in A school he gets his phone back so he can call me every night and that is absolutely amazing. but i still dont get to see him for 2 more months again. he might be coming home for christmas and i REALLY REALLY hope he does. then it's only one month and then one more month until he comes home and gets stationed somewhere. sigh i really hope it is somewhere on the west coast because that is not too bad of a drive... if he is on the east coast.. it's pretty much flying only and idk how much i could afford that. lol. calvin is the love of my life and i just wish i could spend like every waking moment with him but that is not going to happen any time soon. well i am just really hoping that the next few weeks go by really fast and then it will be much easier. but i doubt that they will go by fast. great. so i bought some really soft material and made calvin a blanket. it's cute but it freaking took me like 2 and a half hours. geez! well i hope that he likes it. i think i'm going to get him something else but idk what! like a combination of birthday and graduation. he is just so hard to buy for but i want to surprise him with someone cool. i might just end up having to get him a hoodie but i already gave him one of those and i don't want to repeat that. ugh........ sooo frustrating. haha.. well i'm dead tired so i had better get some sleep before class tomorrow. goodnight. peace out. i love you calvin.