school

so i have so many tests this week and i just like want to shoot myself in the face right now. haha i hate all the homework i have! it's horrible. i havent' been sleeping very well and i don't know why. maybe i'm just too stressed out. i'm freaking breaking out everywhere on my face, i'm getting a lot of migrains and headaches, and i'm extremely anxious to see calvin. i just need a break from everything. i'm soo excited for this weekend with crimson nights and frightmares. it's going to be awesome. i have been trying to get some more sleep but every time i try i wake up a million times. i took a two hour nap today and i still have a freaking headache again. what is wrong with me?!? ugh. i'm missing calvin so bad. all i want to do is get on a stupid plane right now and spend two weeks with him. it's bothering me that i cant' talk to him in person. it really is. i just listen to his voice mails and cry sometimes. i'm such a big baby i know. i just miss him so freaking much. luckily he wants to do his four years and get out... that makes me feel soo good. i just pray that he never EVER has to go to afgahistan or iraq.. i would probably sob if he had to go there. i pray for him everyday and i just want him to be happy. i just hope that he is always safe. i worry about him like 24/7 and i don't want to cuz my mother worries about everything and i don't want to be that way. but i feel like if he is active in the navy... i will always be worried about him no matter what. all i want to do is have him fall asleep next to me every night and just hold me and be with me. he is my everything and i cant wait to go see him!!! :D well i have a lot of homework to do so i had better get going. peace out.