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so each day that goes by i get more and  more excited about seeing Calvin. i miss him sooo freaking much. i absolutely love getting his letters and i cant wait until i get more. i really wish that he could have one more phone call. we sent him a calling card with like 1000 minutes on it and i hope he can use it because i really really miss talking to him everyday. god i can't wait until he gets his phone back for A school! and i can't wait to see him! ah now it feels like the days are going by much slower than normal. i don't like it. well yesterday i dyed my hair and it's pretty but i think it's a little dark for me. it almost looks black now. but i really needed to do it because i was getting some nasty roots. haha and i am going to look sexy for calvin!! haha idk what to get him for his birthday... ugh he is so hard to buy for!!! haha i was thinking another sweatshirt but idk! i already got him one. i'm going to make him a blanket for sure tho. he already has cologne and a watch i gave him last year. and a nice jacket i gave him for christmas and a hoodie i gave him for something else. lol so idk what is like left! i really really wanted to get him a laptop cuz then we could talk all the time in person and i know he wants one.. but i just can't afford it right now which really sucks. cuz he has given me some amazing presents and i wish i could give him one really amazing one. he is such a sweetheart. he is the most giving person i know. he does so much for me and his family. :) well i really just need a new job that pays a lot more money. minimum wage sucks. and cna job sucks but they pay kinda well. i'm trying to get a job at the mall here now cuz they make pretty good money. but we will see i guess. lol well i had better get some stuff done so i'm logging out now. peace out.