Calvin

so Calvin leaves in exactly nine days... sigh. that is going to be the worst day of my life. i just like cry even thinking about it. i just can't picture not texting him everyday and seeing him once a week. i'm only going be allowed to write letters once a week.... that's so not enough. he make my day every time i just text him. he is my life and he is leaving. and i feel so bad cuz i'm so busy with school and work now that i can't even see him very much as it is. i'm going to miss him so much it hurts. in so many ways i wish that he wasn't joining the navy, but i mean he can't work at wal mart the rest of his life. just why does he have to leave now? why not three years from now and we can get married and i can come with him. he is the only one i want to be with for forever. i'm just gonna be so lonely. i mean ya i have friends that will keep me company and everythin but it's not the same ya know? when you cant see or talk to the love of your life it's unbareable. i'm kinda glad that i'm in school cuz i'm just gonna have so much homework and work to distract me.... but that only does so much. i have pictures of him all in my room and i want to keep them up to remind me of his face but looking at them is gonna be so painful. well i'm crying right now so i should probably get off the computer now. peace out.....