excitement :)

so calvin gets to come home for two weeks :) i'm soo freaking excited. two weeks is a very short time and i wish that he could stay longer but he can't. :( he gets in on december 17th and has to leave january 1st really early in the morning. i'm going to like cry my eyes out.. yet again.. when he leaves lol. i absolutely hate saying goodbye over and over. but i guess it's just four years out of the rest of our lives together. people are asking me if i think he is going to propose while he is here. i'll admit i've actually been giving little hints kinda hoping he would. i'm such a freak. lol. like i said i can't wait to marry you :) and i said that i don't think my parents would freak out if we got married. lol i really don't think they would. well maybe a little but not as much as they would have awhile ago. i really hope he does propose this christmas because christmas time is so pretty and magical. if he doesn't i'm not going to be like super disapointed so i'm not getting my hopes up or anything but i really hope he does. haha. i'm like already planning my wedding. wow i didn't realize how much of a freak i am until i actually started to type all of this down. haha. well i'm just a normal girl i guess. haha i love him so much and i just can't wait for the rest of our lives together. i miss him so freaking much all the time. i just can't wait until he gets here. spending time with him is going to be so nice. i'll probably end up just sleeping at his place like the entire two weeks he is going to be here. haha. sleeping next to him was so nice. i would wake up in the middle of the night cold and then pull the covers back over us and then he would grab me from the other side of the bed and pull me up tight to him. :) he is such a cutie. lol man i can't wait. haha anyways i'm just at my apartment right now all by myself because everyone is gone for the holidays. sigh... if only calvin were here. :) peace out.