yay :)

so it's soo freaking awesome that calvin is finally here :) i'm absolutely loving it. i'm like spending every last second i can with him because i have no idea after this when i'm going to see him again which freaking sucks. at least when he was in bootcamp and is in a school i knew when i was flying out to see him or he was flying here to see me. i thought bootcamp was going to be the hardest... hah... ya right. he is going to be on a ship for 6 or 7 months at a time... greeeeaaattt... fanfreakingtastic. well at least i have brooke. :) i really hope that i can afford to go to washington dc with her this summer.. that would be SO cool! we would have soooo much fun. :) man i'm going to be soo sad all over again when he leaves... again. lol. this is probably going to be the time i cry the most when he leaves.. which is hard to believe since i cried so freaking much before. haha. i just say oh well it's just four years... well that is a lot longer than i guess i thought. it's only been four months into it. and it's already seemed like eternity. it's ridiculous! well i am 99% sure he is not going to purpose this christmas. lol it would just complicate things with my parents and all that stuff and i doubt he even has the money for a ring at the moment. i guess he doesn't need a ring to purpose but i think he wants to. that's ok tho :) i can wait forever i guess haha. i need to start taking more pictures while he is here cuz i only have ones of him right before he left and a few of him at graduation. i have like no new pictures of us together but i keep forgetting to take the pictures!!! do it!! lol. well i'm going to try it stop thinking about him leaving cuz it makes me want to cry and i don't want to be sad until the very last moment he leaves. so i'm going to sign off for the night cuz i have to work early tomorrow. well peace out.