life

so about a billion things are stressing me out lately and idk how to handle it really. my classes are getting a lot harder than i expected they would. i had to drop out of my spanish class into an easier one. i have a math exam and a microbiology exam and three government quizzes to do this week. and i have to deal with work and other homework and i'm really missing calvin. he has only been gone two weeks. but i haven't even gotten a letter yet :( i know he is very busy but i'm just really missing him and wish i could hear from him. his birthday is in 8 days and idk what i can get him. i wanted to get him a netbook but he can't have electronics so that wont' work. i think i'm just gonna make him some stuff and get him that netbook as a late birthday/ graduation present. :) i'm extremely proud of him but i just wish i could be with him while he was doing this. i hate that he is so far away. well i finally got the date of his graduation... november 4th :) i'm flying out with his mom and sister to go see his graduation. :) it seems soooo far away right now. so i was looking at the calendar and realized it has only been two weeks since he left. it feels like it has been 4 months already. i have been hanging out with friends a lot which is helping more than i thought it would. :) especially brooke :) she has been helping me feel better and has made this experience a lot less painful. :) i wish so badly that we could just skip school for a week and go on a trip somewhere cool. i just need a break like that right now but that's not going to happen until i go to graduation. i'm already like looking forward to christmas break. i am sooo ready. haha that's so sad. well yesterday was not a very good day cuz i had ANOTHER migrain and i needed to study for my math exam today and i was really missing calvin and it was just bad. i took a nap for three hours and then woke up for two hours and went to bed for the night. i just couldn't get rid of that stupid migrain. i hate those so badly. well i'm really hoping the next few weeks go by fairly quickly. cuz i thought these weeks went by fast but it's only been two. grrrr... anyways i had better get back to some late night studying... lol peace out